Are you wasting energy?
What practice in your life, determines how you approach entering an airport-cafe?
What’s making you talk the way you do with the person at the other side of the desk?
What do you do, with the time available to you, once seated?
Some of the answers you gave, you may share in common with many others. What really matters tho, is how you approach it.
Get a foot in the door, as one of those who seek to make a change, in whatever way works for you.
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